I want lots of things. I want to feel happy, relaxed and at ease every day of my life. All day. I just want to enjoy life. Every last bit of it. I want to be one of those people who just can’t stop smiling, who’s always positive, who cheers everyone around them up because I’m just so damn good to be around!
And surely if that’s what I want I can have it right? Surely if I’m not like that now it’s because I’m choosing not to be like that. I’m choosing something else. I’m choosing to worry. I’m choosing to be dissatisfied. I’m choosing to be pessimistic. I’m choosing to look on the dark side instead of the light.
I just have to choose something different. So here goes. I believe I can be happy every day of my life. I believe I can enjoy everything. I believe I can be positive all the time. I believe I can bask in the light of love and ease and joy and bliss. I really truly do believe that.
I think I am in the habit of looking for problems. I think I was brought up to err on the side of caution. I think sometimes I even think I’m right to do that. That it somehow protects me from harm, from bad things happening to me, because it allows me to prepare or take steps to guard against such harm.
It starts right here. I’m happy right now. What a lovely morning. I’m so happy to be able to provide a safe home for those bees. It’s so nice to have the luxury of sitting here writing this blog post this morning. I’m so enjoying writing so much and practising being a creative person.
I’m looking forward to having a nap at some time. I’m looking forward to cleaning up my house today and cooking some yummy healthy food and I might even go shopping later if I feel like it. I have options. I have choices. I’m reading a really good book and I have three others to read after I finish it.
I have an exciting Saturday coming up. It will be so enjoyable to spend half the day in the Lake District, with other likeminded people, supported and cheered along the way. I’m really well prepared and I just love setting off with a bag on my back with everything I’m going to need for the day. It’s such a joy and a privilege to be able to do something like this. What a life!
I’m excited at the idea of having my own car and being able to go to the tip and the DIY shop and the garden centre whenever I want! Woohoo! That will be great actually.
Also summer is coming and soon I’m going to switch over my summer and winter wardrobes I think and then I’ll be able to start planning for my holiday. I’m really looking forward to the warm weather, the sea, the beauty, the restaurants, shops and cafés, and just spending some relaxing time out there with my mum.
Life is good.