It’s been a while. I was on holiday for a week and then have spent a week trying to get my habits back, trying to get my mind back really, as it tends to go a bit AWOL when I drink, eat sugar, and don’t have any time for myself, all of which happened on […]
Blessed no matter what
I feel reluctant to blog all of a sudden. I’ve missed the two weekend days but that’s quite normal. I suddenly feel shy or something. I don’t feel like I have anything to say all of a sudden. I have been questioning my habits challenge and all of the habits I’ve been very much sticking […]
Stop, sit, listen, if you can?
I don’t understand what life is for. I just keep striving to achieve things, but it doesn’t really make me happy. Whether I achieve things or not, I just move on to the next thing and I start striving for that. I think I need to relax and let myself find what feels good, find […]
I’m entitled to miracles
I’m struck by the difference between the joy this lesson (#77, ACIM) is supposed to bring, and how I feel about it. I feel like miracles are not so much a gift as something I must make happen, a change I must make to my not good enough character. That is, I feel like a […]
Selfish?
Today’s A Course in Miracles lesson, number 76, is I’m under no laws but God’s (or love’s). The meaning is that I should stop worrying about all the things I usually worry about and only think about loving and giving my life to others. That’s the long and the short of it. I think I’m […]
Miracles and toughening up
I feel a bit rebellious against my habits today. I think I’m quite tired, I’m maybe almost too used to them now, so they don’t feel quite as exciting and shiny. I’m a bit sore from my running too. I’m aware that I have maybe just an hour of work to do today. Also, thinking […]